Feeling like myself again?

I have hesitated to say this sentence because it scares me a little, but.... I think I am feeling like myself again.  Yes, there are a few odd things still.  However, at least I FEEL like I am going to live.  No, really.  We throw around the term, "I'm gonna die" or "I'm dying" but I really, REALLY thought I was.  No joking.  Looking back, I don't even know how I got from there to here.  But here I am.  And oh how many lessons I have learned along the way!

Right now, life is AMAZING!  I am doing a job I LOVE, raising kids I LOVE, married to a guy I LOVE, and busy, busy, busy with work, church, Ashton's school, baseball, and raising Jayce.

Ashton is loving baseball this year and is getting better everyday.  He graduates from Kindergarten next week (AAAHHHH) and is super excited for 1st grade.  He just turned 6 and is CrAzY about superheroes.  It's funny how kids will surprise you because I always thought Ashton was going to be a natural athlete and would struggle more with schoolwork, but it has turned out to be the opposite.  He is insanely smart and an excellent student.  They are already doing spelling tests (in Kindergarten!!) and he surprises me every time one comes home!  He loves sports very much but has to work very hard to keep up with kids his age.  He is very passive around other kids and won't play as aggressive as he does at home with the big boys.  He is too tenderhearted and I have him worried that he is going to hurt someone. 

Jayce is...well, he's just Jayce.  He has gone from teeny baby, to fat baby, to teeny toddler.  I worry about his lack of eating and the fact that he is wearing the same size clothes this year that he wore when he was 1 (he is almost 3!).  I have learned in the last 3 years though that Jayce will progress on his time and that I should NOT rush him.  He shows no interest in potty training, in fact, he is downright AGAINST it!  After being so frazzled for 6 months over him not walking, I have learned to wait.  He is very much like his mother and I can tell you from experience, she doesn't like to be forced into things either. :)  When you are parenting, you learn that there are certain areas that you can give a little on and that there are certain areas that you will NOT give on.  Everyone is happier when you find the balance!